Rollercoaster

I had a rollercoaster day. Nerve wracking for hours, heart pounding and a tight chest. Something constantly sitting at the back of my mind and weighing on me. The nervousness and panic and fear so strong I can hardly think of anything else.

I try to remind myself of stoic wisdom that worrying is futile and either is totally unnecessary (if the thing didn't happen) or prolongs the pain (if it did). 

I try to think of more important things that could be worrying. Put it in context of other people's bigger worries or my future potential worries. This palpable anxiety was so strong for something so small and insignificant - a conversion driving test.

But in this experience I was able to share in so many others' experience as they go through tests and worries. It's amazing how through this simple test I was emotionally similar to politicians making giant decisions or businesspeople pitching giant deals.

I believe the experience is similar no matter what it's actually about. I wonder how many other experiences I can now empathize with.