Lizzard

I was trying to meditate and there was a lizzard next to me. It's crawled over from a few meters away and just stopped in the shade and stared at me. And I couldn't look away.

I tried to focus on my breath, the sunset, the music, but every few seconds I had to check that it was still there. I started envisioning it coming to crawl on me, biting me and needing to rush to hospital. I could see it's striped tail and imagined this must be a sign of a rare venemous breed.

I tried to convince myself I was being silly, that the most likely chance is nothing would happen. I thought about how irrational it was that the lizzard could have been closer to me from behind and by not seeing it I would have been able to stay calm and clear.

But I just could not let go. I wonder why it was so hard for me.